New page, New baby

So, I'm 37 weeks and 3 days pregnant. Time is flying and rushing by. Most people say their pregnancies drug on and on. But I'm sitting here thinking, where did the time go?? Possibly this week, next week, 2 and a half week and I could be holding my little princess in my arms. Not that I'm complaining, I can't wait! I'm so excited that she is almost here. I can't wait to hold her for the first time, to kiss her, feel her, see her sweet face, dress her up, cuddle with her, feed her, and be her mommy. I can't wait to get her to her new home with just me and my wonderful husband and start our lives as parents. 
 Nick is taking 2 weeks off of work, so I'm looking forward to having him home everyday and for us to have alone time to get to know our baby. I'm going to enjoy this learning experience with him. Our lives are about to change, but we are embracing it.
 I've been having lots of fun decorating her nursery! I hope she likes it, if not, well when she is older she can change it. :P   

 It's neat not know what day she will decide to get here and I get to wait in anticipation. Everyday I feel my body getting more and more ready for labor and to bring her into the world. Hurry Whitney Nikole! Mommy and Daddy can't wait for you to get here! <3

~Sarah
 

I'm married!

So my wedding day has come and went, April 23, 2011. It was a complete fairytale, an absolute dream. Everything was perfect, I couldn't have asked for more. It was what I'm sure every single girl dreams that her wedding day could be.
I'm not sure how, or why, with all that I've done, or been through that I was blessed with such a man as my husband. I'm amazed, simply amazed. I really don't understand. I don't think I'll try to though, it's pretty much beyond my comprehension. He is amazing. He is my heaven.
From the flowers, to the pictures, to the food (though the wedding cake was NOT what I wanted and they completely screwed it up, but that's besides the point). i had my memorial table with pictures of Dad set up in the corner, it made me feel like at least a little part of him was there. I would of given anything to have him walk me down the aisle, but my brother was able to do the honor.
It took about 5 hours to do everyone's hair and makeup so we could start taking pictures but everyone looked so gorgeous,

and the guys cleaned up pretty good too. Nick looked amazing standing there waiting for me and I did really good and held off on crying until I was saying my vows. What?! I couldn't help it lol.
I'm so proud and honored to be Mrs. Wilson. How perfect does that sound?! I'm loving my life. <3

~Sarah

For my Nick

it feels so different being here, there is no where else i'd rather be. this is my place in life and i wouldn't change it for anything. life for me is not the same, and i wouldn't have it any other way. seems like everywhere i go, i keep thinking of you. i can't get you off of my mind for a single second throughout the day. you consume my every thought. i love being with you and when you're not there, there is an empty void that only you can fill and it's so hard to breathe without you here by my side. your love brought me to the light and i am no longer in the dark. ...you're where i go cause your heart's where I lay my head every night. i hate trying to fall back asleep when you're not with me, i love falling asleep on your strong warm chest. i count down the seconds til you come back home everyday. i look forward to doing tht for the rest of my life. cause boy you made it hard to breathe when you're not with me. I LOVE you, 172 days til i'm your wife :)

~Sarah

Love is not jealous... ??

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.....

Love is not jealous? i don't understand. how can love not be jealous? love is one of the most strongest feeling known to man and women. though i guess when i think about it, jealousy would be considered unbecoming. but i still don't understand. when it comes to love, or more directly, when it comes to my fiancee, who i love more than life itself, then i'm more jealous than i probably should be. it is somewhat consuming, and not something that i can control very easily. in fact, it's almost impossible. i don't know how to control it, but since i love him as much as i do...wouldn't it be simple and easy to control and not let things like jealousy rise up?
cause honestly, i'm very very jealous. i'm jealous of his love, his time, his attention, his work that gets him more than i do. i'm jealous of his every glance, anything that passes in front of his eyes, everything that he touches, everyone he speaks to, anyone who sees him...especially if that someone is a pretty girl, a girl prettier than me...i wish worts on her face so that he might not find her attractive in anyway. (which is very wrong of me, i know...but kind of fun ^_^ )
so you see, that is why i don't understand how love is not jealous. but i am so deeply in love, and so very jealous of everything about him...? i don't get it. :/

~Sarah

Sharing my life with my Love

so it has been 6 months since the most wonderful man on the planet has asked me to be his wife and i said YES. the best day of my life so far... the next best day will be when i say I DO! :D i really don't know what i did to deserve such a wonderful, handsome, kind and caring...sexy man. lol.
at this time last year i couldn't have imagined myself where i am today...where i am today, would have been a fantasy that i would think i could never have for myself, to be loved completely by him and only him and him loving me for who i am. i've dreamed of a love like this since i was a little girl, but i think all little girls have such fantasies. they dream of their wedding day down to the "T" and of the dozens of babies they are going to have and living a life married to their dashing prince and living happily ever after.
2 years ago that dream for me vanished when dark lords and dukes tried to steal my dreams away from me. crushing the very hope of a prince charming for me. leaving me torn and broken. no happily ever afters there. only darkness and pain and the only hope was quickly fading into nothing, just like my life had become. nothing.
but fairy-tales do happen. there are prince charmings and knight in shining armors. there are still men out there who will pull out that diamond ring and ask you to be their bride and treat you like the princess you are. there are men who still promise a lifetime and more of happily ever afters.
i'm so blessed and glad to have found my prince. everyday, he showers me with his undying love and i can only hope that he feels my love for him just as much as i have no doubt of his. i hope that every morning as he wakes up at my side that he has no doubt that i'm his princess and he is my prince, and there is nowhere else i'd rather be.

~Sarah

Promise of a Lifetime

I have fallen to my knees
As I sing a lullaby of pain
I'm feeling broken in my melody
As I sing to help the tears go away
Then I remember the pledge you made to me

I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

Will you help me fall apart
Pick me up, take me in your arms
Find my way back from the storm
And you show me how to grow through the change
I still remember the pledge you made to me

I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

I am holding on to the hope I have inside
With you I will stay through every day
Putting my understanding aside
I am comforted

To know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
Looking back at me
I know that you can see my heart is open to
The promise of a lifetime