Love is not jealous... ??

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.....

Love is not jealous? i don't understand. how can love not be jealous? love is one of the most strongest feeling known to man and women. though i guess when i think about it, jealousy would be considered unbecoming. but i still don't understand. when it comes to love, or more directly, when it comes to my fiancee, who i love more than life itself, then i'm more jealous than i probably should be. it is somewhat consuming, and not something that i can control very easily. in fact, it's almost impossible. i don't know how to control it, but since i love him as much as i do...wouldn't it be simple and easy to control and not let things like jealousy rise up?
cause honestly, i'm very very jealous. i'm jealous of his love, his time, his attention, his work that gets him more than i do. i'm jealous of his every glance, anything that passes in front of his eyes, everything that he touches, everyone he speaks to, anyone who sees him...especially if that someone is a pretty girl, a girl prettier than me...i wish worts on her face so that he might not find her attractive in anyway. (which is very wrong of me, i know...but kind of fun ^_^ )
so you see, that is why i don't understand how love is not jealous. but i am so deeply in love, and so very jealous of everything about him...? i don't get it. :/

~Sarah

Sharing my life with my Love

so it has been 6 months since the most wonderful man on the planet has asked me to be his wife and i said YES. the best day of my life so far... the next best day will be when i say I DO! :D i really don't know what i did to deserve such a wonderful, handsome, kind and caring...sexy man. lol.
at this time last year i couldn't have imagined myself where i am today...where i am today, would have been a fantasy that i would think i could never have for myself, to be loved completely by him and only him and him loving me for who i am. i've dreamed of a love like this since i was a little girl, but i think all little girls have such fantasies. they dream of their wedding day down to the "T" and of the dozens of babies they are going to have and living a life married to their dashing prince and living happily ever after.
2 years ago that dream for me vanished when dark lords and dukes tried to steal my dreams away from me. crushing the very hope of a prince charming for me. leaving me torn and broken. no happily ever afters there. only darkness and pain and the only hope was quickly fading into nothing, just like my life had become. nothing.
but fairy-tales do happen. there are prince charmings and knight in shining armors. there are still men out there who will pull out that diamond ring and ask you to be their bride and treat you like the princess you are. there are men who still promise a lifetime and more of happily ever afters.
i'm so blessed and glad to have found my prince. everyday, he showers me with his undying love and i can only hope that he feels my love for him just as much as i have no doubt of his. i hope that every morning as he wakes up at my side that he has no doubt that i'm his princess and he is my prince, and there is nowhere else i'd rather be.

~Sarah